Years ago, when I aided in teaching young children martial arts, we would attempt to teach children vocabulary relevant to their lessons. One lesson was integrity. It was defined as “Doing what is right even when no one is looking.” The questions that rise to the surface are; What do you stand for? What code do you live by? As a Wiccan hedge witch, I sometimes find it difficult to completely take in the concept of “harm none.” Is that truly possible? Do we not destroy life as we walk upon the land, deprive someone when we choose to take? Talk about opening a Pandora’s box of philosophical questions that will make your head and heart ache!
This work tells a little about how I’ve managed to find a personal understanding of “harm none.” At some point in my contemplation came the realization that it is intention that is left out of that statement. I’ve personally interpreted it as; do not intentionally seek to destroy another and do not use the power against your brothers and sisters in a way that brings ruin. Let me clarify however that I do not mean that energies cannot be directed to bring balance to a situation, to uncover and dispel lies and illusions and to make someone responsible for their actions. The best spells honestly are the ones that bring powerful, personal revelations to all parties involved.
Often, I have received requests to do magic for others. This is a rare act on my part. I’ve heard this said: People that use magic are selfish, it shouldn’t be used for personal gain. Ever dancing between the wondrous greys, I try to look beyond the black and white extremes (I do keep them in mind though.) I use magic for my own ends ultimately as well as in a broader sense. Let me explain. When something terrible happens in the world, I work for peace, understanding, love and to dispel ignorance and confusions that pit people against one another. Of course, that does not mean I won’t work for myself!
I deeply feel that in the endeavor to heal ourselves, to make ourselves more whole in each moment (yes even with the power of magic) is to begin to heal aspects of the world. When we come from a place of love and healing we can begin to approach problems much larger than those on an individual scale. I have used magic to reveal the source of my anxiety, to face and dispel fear, to negate harmful energies (both intentionally and unintentionally directed.) To clear space, to find courage and confidence, to bring me to resolution and so much more. The greatest part? Magic has taught me more about myself than I could have imagined. While I can think of an array of examples, one stand out.
In 2012, I became quite aware that something wasn’t right in my marriage. I’d no proof at all but suddenly a wonderfully detailed spell popped right into my head involving securing fidelity in my relationship. I was supposed to do it right! I mean, it did pop into my head. I chose not to. Instead, I decided to follow the deep seeded feeling that something was wrong. Animals came to visit me in my dreams, Lynx with her secrets and vulture begging to peck out the dead parts…and you know, it was painful as any hell I could describe. I lost nearly everything I’d come to know during that phase of my life. The real point is; I needed to lose it. While I don’t have all the answers about personal integrity and the use of magic, I have learned that it isn’t always the answer. Sometimes, you must put it down, tap into your deeper self and just listen. You may not like what you hear, but most of the time it is well worth it -even if it sends your life reeling; you’ll find yourself on the road back home to your own heart each time.